Becoming her own Mother

I love Sukhi’s writing which is such a reflection of her being. This was her post on my birthday and somehow it speaks to me a lot.. I am surer many of you will enjoy it. Her Joyous Woman page on fb is worth ‘liking’. Read on..

Joyous Woman! with Sukhvinder Sircar

Natalia Tajera Art: Natalia Tajera

She’s accessing a joyous inner conversation.

She’s speaking to herself differently now. She thought she was a victim to an external oppressor, but it’s been more dangerous than that.

She’s realising she had internalized all her oppressors from childhood. They’re still busy controlling & disciplining her as her inner voice. These voices create self-reproach when she’s just resting on the couch, reading a book, sitting in the garden, taking a nap ~ saying to her ‘don’t waste your time’. She’s been so programmed into being useful & productive that’ free’ time, indulgence, self-care becomes a ‘guilty pleasure’. That she should rest is intolerant to this inner oppressor disguised as ‘her’ voice.

This voice is there to steal her power. It tells her she’s lesser when she’s with a group, it tells her she’s selfish when she wants to pursue her dream, and it tells her she wont make…

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Are you committed to the ending?

Just yesterday on the flight I met some new friends who I had been wanting to connect more deeply with for a while. Hughen & Arundati who I met thru GD. And I asked them some version of this question which Rajesh would often ask me not so much in his speaking but by being who he was:

Can you totally commit to the ending of the self?

And he would say, the ‘I’ doesn’t know what it means to be committed.
So can you watch what comes in the way of this total commitment.. without condemning or justifying it.. (condemning/justifying etc. is the back door thru which the self enters again! ;-)) Only thru such seeing, what interferes gets dropped.

And then just now, I see this beautiful sharing of Francis- thru my dear friend, Om:

“Like fireworks, this universe is a celebration and you are the spectator contemplating the eternal Fourth of July of your absolute splendor”

“The prerequisite for this final liberation is an overwhelming desire for the truth. We often overestimate our desire. If it was as strong as we believe it to be, we would instantaneously awaken. Here is an example: often people tell me that they have a strong desire, that I am the teacher they feel the most attracted to, but that unfortunately they have no time to visit, or that they are afraid of flying, or that they have spent their money buying a new house and cannot pay for their travel expenses, etc. We fail to face the fact that our desire is simply not as strong as we believe it to be. To see the facts without distortion is the first step to welcoming.

This desire will grow at its own pace. It is already in us. When our quest for the Truth TRULY becomes our priority, liberation is around the corner.”

– Francis Lucille

Yesterday, I also met a person who is an HR head in a multinational on the same flight who I had worked with when he was with another organisation some 15 years back. It was a warm connection. I had the option to reconnect with him also and would have enjoyed it and maybe some openings for business would have also happened. But the “choice” was clear for I knew that with these friends, some real conversation/ seeing about ending the self would happen. And it did. And how!

Incredible life.

Have spent 10 days at Rishikesh at the Mooji Satsangs in the last few weeks. It has been a moving time. I have never seen and felt an energy field that so pure and rich simply with the deep yearning to end suffering and the self. To discover this ‘impossible’ and yet obvious seeing.. of realising the Self. It has been variously seen as freedom, the ending of seeking, conflict, experience and a lot else. The journey with several realised souls is also unraveling the truth:

GD (his brother Aalif writs beautifully of the many encounters with him on his blog, superAalifgilistic) ,

Rajesh Dalal Who I have blogged about here (Simple encounters with Greatness and also Heal or Awaken?)

Ananta Garg (Sangha of Being fb page)

Jeff Foster (His incredible fb page- Jeff Foster- Life without a centre‘)

Adyashanti (His lovely audios ‘End of Your world’ on Youtube and also the book by that title)

and more.

Ye shall find what ye seek. And the deepest longing of the human heart is to find itself- so that the seeking ends.

 

 

A few favorite ‘seeings’ … of clarity, love and beauty

There are some words which take you to a place beyond words. There is some wisdom that you feel like visiting again and again and each time deeper layers are revealed. A few such pieces I share below..

to drink at the pool… 

“You will reach a point where the heart tells itself what to do…Try to be mindful, and let things take their natural course. Then your mind will become still in any surroundings, like a clear forest pool. All kinds of wonderful, rare animals will come to drink at the pool, and you will clearly see the nature of all things. You will see many strange and wonderful things come and go, but you will be still.”  ~ Ajahn Chah

investing in a compromise…

“If you limit your choices to only what seems possible or reasonable, you disconnect yourself from what you truly want, and all you have left is a compromise. You never have the same enthusiasm.
Because the human spirit will not invest itself in a compromise”

his inmost thoughts…

When your heart becomes the grave of your secrets, that desire of yours will be gained more quickly. The prophet said that anyone who keeps secret his inmost thought will soon attain the object of his desire.
When seeds are buried in the earth, their inward secrets become the flourishing garden. – Rumi

that is your reward…

“If you want to be a grocer, or a general, or a politician, or a judge, you will invariably become it; that is your punishment. If you never know what you want to be, if you live what some might call the dynamic life but what I will call the artistic life, if each day you are unsure of who you are and what you know you will never become anything, and that is your reward.” – Oscar Wilde

facebook conversation on this

the nonsense of earning a living

“We should do away with the absolutely specious notion that everybody has to earn a living. It is a fact today that one in ten thousand of us can make a technological breakthrough capable of supporting all the rest. The youth of today are absolutely right in recognizing this nonsense of earning a living. We keep inventing jobs because of this false idea that everybody has to be employed at some kind of drudgery because, according to Malthusian Darwinian theory he must justify his right to exist. So we have inspectors of inspectors and people making instruments for inspectors to inspect inspectors. The true business of people should be to go back to school and think about whatever it was they were thinking about before somebody came along and told them they had to earn a living.”  ― Buckminster Fuller

great conversation on fb on this bucky wisdom

Running after what is looking for me…

“When I run after what I think I want, my days are a furnace of stress and anxiety; if I sit in my own place of patience, what I need flows to me, and without pain.
From this I understand that what I want also wants me, is looking for me and attracting me.
There is a great secret here for anyone who can grasp it”
~Rumi.

doing as others told me… 

“Doing as others told me, I was blind.
Coming where others called me, I was lost.
Then, I left everyone, myself as well.
Then I found everyone. Myself as well.”
– Rumi

“If you’re really listening, if you’re awake to the poignant beauty of the world, your heart breaks regularly. In fact, your heart is made to break; its purpose is to burst open again and again so that it can hold ever-more wonders.”
–Andrew Harvey, “The Return of the Mother”

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